I went back home today to visit my parent. They are fine, normal and too clam for them to take the fact that I moved out (it happened last month, I think). Mom was about to cry while talking on the phone with me the next day, I recall. Would never realize that mom’s voice was so soft and nice to hear. I got into place no longer the same as my bedroom, my closet…everything’s new! Even my “family” change! Used to be 12 people in the group now only 3 of them. Things changed all this while and I am still remaining like before.
I’m 19 now, people asking and talking about future. My bright future? Hell knows, I got no idea about my future. Oversea, I insist not to go. Why? I don’t want to be their burden anymore; I want them to be happy. As for mom, she wishes to travel lot of place yet now? She always complains about leg aching, hectic work and dad will retire from work after I graduate. The sooner I graduate the sooner their wish comes true. I wish my parent is rich so they wouldn’t suffer so much. Seems like I demand too much from them and neglected what their dreams and how their feelings are…
I’m sorry,
PP.
Pre - Birthday Celebration
Love ya
PP.
Staying at home do nothing it makes me feels like I’m the most useless person in the family. But you know, after all the hectic and stressful assignments and exams, finally got a month plus holiday is quite… Erm…shall I says “I deserves it?” whatever, I think mostly all my course mates suppose catching a flight to some where else to enjoy their holiday, some might not just like I do. Or else, working hardly to gained some $$$? Oh yea, announcement to everyone! I’d terminated my streamxy due to some technical problem. Ha-ha…now I’m really having a super boring holiday! Whatever guys enjoy your holiday. Take care.
By,
PP.
I don’t know why it seems like lot of things kept happening to my friends, family and so on even the weather nowadays also acting abnormal. I kept hearing form my mom saying her friend’s daughter suffered from breast cancer, my aunt as well. Then, previous was my friend suffered from leukemia… all these show human was so weak and so fragile. What can I do is just “oh…that’s too bad!”, “uh? How could this happen?”… Some even don’t bother what they heard about it, true! Because there is nothing they/we can do. Just I felt sympathy and sorry…life’s so pathetic! When grandma passed away, there are some ceremonies going on. My parent, aunties and uncles all were just normal I couldn’t feel some sort of sadness among them. They take it peacefully… because they do believe that a ma (grandma) goes peacefully so need not to be sad. At least there’s the last thing we can do for a ma, be happy always and take good care ourselves. But then, I’m very touched when I saw dad cried coming out from a ma’s room on the last day of funeral (where all the son/daughter have to clean up the dead’s face) so called the last moment with their beloved ones. I’ve never seen dad cry before 19 years I am now, even on a gong’s (grandpa) funeral. It was the first time also the last time, I believe.
Remember the bird nest that I told last time? Now they are back with their new born babies…
By,
PP.
Staying at home do nothing it makes me feels like I’m the most useless person in the family. But you know, after all the hectic and stressful assignments and exams, finally got a month plus holiday is quite… Erm…shall I says “I deserves it?” whatever, I think mostly all my course mates suppose catching a flight to some where else to enjoy their holiday, some might not just like I do. Or else, working hardly to gained some $$$? Oh yea, announcement to everyone! I’d terminated my streamxy due to some technical problem. Ha-ha…now I’m really having a super boring holiday! Whatever guys enjoy your holiday. Take care.
By,
PP.
I’m really unhappy about today where everything seems not going well. Presentation, friendship then friend suffering from leukemia! I’m shocked where got to know about the news. She was just fine and stayed healthy all the while. I’m not close to her yet as a friend; I hope everyone could be strong and stay healthy. As N’s said, is really suck attending funerals. My uncle has just passed away two weeks back; I hate the feeling of sadness and sorrowful. I hate attending funerals; no one would like it of course.
I did not sleep well these few days. Is always fair where something bad happened then the good ones turns up, instead. That’s why people always say that there is a short period for happiness. Something like mega sale??? Of course, mega sale’s period usually longer than that!
Well, take good care of yourself. Be strong and stay healthy.
PP.
Then, I messaged him yesterday asking how he was and the family as well. Sounds good, he just steady,that’s life he said… Wow, he had changed become more daring and grown as a man. Ha-ha… just in a way.
Arg… assignments are killing me!!!
Wish me luck….
Take care…
By,
PP
Long time never publish in English, haha… some of my friends asked me to translate all the Chinese post into English. Haha…no way!!! Is hard, by the way I’m not a good freelance. So, just have to leave it there. Well, of course you can flip on dictionary to look at those words. Hehe… Language is different from the way it forms and grammas. Words are magic…
I got an interesting topic with a friend of mine, psychology. Question, you rather choose a big wrapping instead a small wrapping as a present?
Answer, definitely goes for the big one. Why? Just ask yourself, usually when comes to birthday party, is prezie’s time. The first thing that have in your mind and also to your friends was, starting from the big then only goes to the small ones. This mindset been established in our mind since we’re born. No doubt, even a child also will choose a big bottle of coke which is 1 liter instead of a jug of coke which is also 1 liter. Why? Because the tall and big ones always look good. Just a very fun topic that I had this noon.
It is time to think of something interesting, it might help you discover some idea which you have never think of. Because you’re pushing your brain to move faster than usual (should be la…).
Haha...I met Fishtail (my lecturer) today, finally. Wow..is great meeting up with old friend whom funny and has a great sense of humor. A big warm hugs and menace greeting... Take care, Fishtail!!! So do you guys out there.
By,
PP
Went out with J yesterday. We talked about future… After studied, further studies and even after married. In the noon, I had the same topic with L, what a coincidence! I got no idea what I’m going through in the future, no one knows. So…just let it be!!! Erm… K asked about fortune telling. Do you believe in story telling? Oh, quite la… yet of course part of it is unreliable.
What sort of theory they use to calculate? I also don’t know, ha-ha…
Still, it's a rainy day.
Are you having a good mood today, my friend?
By,
PP
Oh gosh, my house phone line been down for few days. Due to that, I couldn’t access internet. Aih…days without internet is boring, few post been wrote yet never got a chance to post it on blog. It’s been awhile I didn’t post any post. Of course none of you missing me! Ha-ha…because I know.
How was your day to all my friends out there? Are you guys doing fine? Well, just take care and all the best yea.
By,
PP
By,
PP
Long time never publish in English, haha… some of my friends asked me to translate all the Chinese post into English. Haha…no way!!! Is hard, by the way I’m not a good freelance. So, just have to leave it there. Well, of course you can flip on dictionary to look at those words. Hehe… Language is different from the way it forms and grammas. Words are magic…
I got a interesting topic with a friend of mine, psychology. Question, you rather choose a big wrapping instead a small wrapping as a present?
Answer, definitely goes for the big one. Why? Just ask yourself, usually when comes to birthday party, is prezie’s time. The first thing that have in your mind and also to your friends was, starting from the big then only goes to the small ones. This mindset been established in our mind since we’re born. No doubt, even a child also will choose a big bottle of coke which is 1 liter instead of a jug of coke which is also 1 liter. Why? Because the tall and big ones always look good. Just a very fun topic that I had this noon.
It is time to think of something interesting, it might help you discover some idea which you have never think of. Because you’re pushing your brain to move faster than usual (should be…).
By,
PP
Ha-ha… The most funny things that I realized that you must have a good connection with people in the industry so it make sense where you will get hired (the chances are higher than others.) Also, further studies is for your own knowledge mostly. Based on Mr. M’s experiences he noticed that in the industry, is more to practical where it means those theory where he studied hard in past time mostly didn’t applied in his working field.
We talked about opening a stall selling goreng pisang, he said that it is a faster and easiest way to earned money. You probably could earned RM 200 the minimum, from 4pm - 7pm. Counted per hour average you could get RM 100. Wasn’t that amazing? I never thought of selling goreng pisang could make such big money. RM 200 per day… is a big amount. No wonder those hawker would drove posh car. It was fun and chit chatting and shared out the opinion and taking some advice from the senior; the experience ones.
By,
PP.
Desk test is great and the group had fun. Of course marks that given was okay. Erm…thought could get better. Feeling sad or disappointed? A bit tho… What to do? The more I’m asking the lesser I get, I think. That’s the rules and regulations in life. As a great good player, you have to obey and just obey the rules without complaining. NO point complaining as in who will know? Can you fix it?
I’m good in one thing I guess, complaining and lazing around.
By,
PP.
有你们真好~

噢!我的小宝贝疯了吗?
竟然用华语写耶!!!???
哈哈!~
不过,真的很想念你,想念每个中学的朋友,
因为我发现,有真正不退色的友谊,那就是你们。
至少我遇见了,所以我不会对大学里面不成功的友谊有多大感想,
至少不开心的一切都过去了,就别再提。
我永远爱你们,也很感动自己并不是孤单的。
至少还有你们。
我中学的死党~
Love ya~
By fennel
Then, finally I found my new job! Yet I’m not going to say it out now because wait after the entire things have settle down then only I’ll let you guys know. Erm…at the moment only 4 people knew it. Ha-ha… I hope I still got the chance to take the job, for few times. So…all depends on faith as well. Bless me god… And you guys pray for me as well, please. During the job, I met a chun guy!!! His name was CF from Klang. That’s all I know about him. He’s nice and very friendly. He do looked very serious and very emphasize on his work (how would I know?) because I was with him for the whole day!!! Guys do look hot when they’re serious!!! I regretted that I’d never take photo with him, people around me also. Aiya...sayang sai!!!
Jane and some of my old schoolmates going to organize a trip to Langkawi Island. Erm…trip again!!! Why everyone kept planning go here and there??? Like need not to worried about their job, college (of course going to skip class), and what about money??? Where the hell they got money from??? Arg…I wish I can get few more jobs then I have enough pocket money… Now??? Just day-dreaming here…
No more day-dreaming…
Next week desk test…all the best guys!!!
Take care, everyone!!!
By,
PP.
Back again *.* "'

I wonder what happened on me this few weeks.
All pimples just "PoP" up so fast...
well, i think its mayb ... emm... exam?
i think so, i almost get crazy 'bout that~ mayb ... stresS ?
ai...
i feel sad today, my mom just argue with my dad so LOUD...
not just argue...
she shout at my dad "wo ai qi si" (i want die) then my dad reply her "qi si la!!! lu ai si lu qi si"!!! ( if u wish to, go ahead)
walau !
can anyone know whatz my feeling?
my mom keep saying she want to go back hometown, then call me simpan a few cloths than follow her back to PENANG at 11 night...
cry cry and cry...
ai...
watz goin on? who can tell me? what to do? now is 12 am , i mean midnight~
she is still crying~
wuuuu....wu..... aaa.....
oh my god....
if i duno who is crying i must thought that might b GHOST...
headache!
ai...
yoyo....
still crying...
by the way, i will pray for " stop it" ...
i feel so annoying!
they are so crazy!
a poh~
"jia jia you ben nan nian de jing"
I just feel like i'm getting INSANE.
oh my god...
well, forget it.
ai....
how are u? i'm now in HOLIDAY ,
at home...
aiks... what can i do? no program ...
when will u free? wanna come out and hav a coffee?
tomorrow free? THURSDAY b4 wesak ~
hahah, itz abit too late ~ ^0^
nvm la~ next time juz when u free ~
keep in touch ^<
and hav u visit my story blog?
c ya , take care~
by fennel
I went to Stephanie’s concert last Saturday, the second row from the stage, it was so so so cool! I got free ticket from my cousin’s friend whom a girl (musician). Geneuivy, she is the only Asian musician been chosen to perform for Stef’s concert, and her family background was super cool. Gen’s younger brother, Arthur was a Malaysia Book Record holder as a percussionist; mother as piano teacher and father was a guitar/ bass player. Her father even could made own guitar and violin as well.
I’m really felt glad and its really an honor got to know Gen’s family. Due to my own personal reason, it because I got FREE ticket to concert, VIP indeed. Wow… And also felt a bit classy because I had a musician friend. Cool uh… Hopefully next time could get chances again to watch concert.
It was my first time been to concert, super cool. People there are super high and even Stef did the best on stage. I thought I could go backstage to take a photo with her, it could not be happen because the security was so tight but I still manage to get her autograph (which on it specific to me) Wow…
Wanted to know who’s concert I’ll be going next???
To my buddies,
BUDDIES forever!!!
PP.
Campaign period : 2-4 May 2006
Date of event : 3 May 2006
Venue : Concourse of KDU College, PJ
Highlight of Campaign : Tie up with AWAM (All Women’s Action Society)
The Theme:
THINK PINK a move to break the stereotypical mindset that pink is a girly colour, only used by stereotypical females and males who have a strong feminine streak.
Objective:
1) To raise awareness on gender differentiation and the typical societal stereotypes in society so that both genders have new opportunities for fuller participation in political, social and cultural affairs. Gender roles are a social construct and can, like all cultural structures, evolve in a positive direction.
2) The ultimate goal is to eliminate gender biasness and discriminatory practices and policies, both overt and covert. The campaign will form the basis for educational intervention that is sensitive to both gender and human rights.
What we will be doing:
We will be working hand in hand with AWAM to launch a campaign on Gender Awareness. The aim is to create awareness that there are many different ways of expressing “masculinity/femininity” and that both genders now play multiple roles which often overlap in society.
We wish to invite YOU to our college on 3rd of May (Wednesday) at 10 am to make the event a success. As this event is open to the public we hope to attract more people to join together with KDU College Mass Communication Club. Thank you.
Is football fever…world cup’s coming back. I’m not a super fans of soccer yet nowadays even in the TV, ads also advertising the UAFA cup (if I’m not mistaken) is just all about soccer!!! Even the security guard from my college also knew that.
I went to college with K today (everyday actually). Both of us wore slipper; I wore a pair of quarter pant jeans while K wore a long one. On the way entering college, we saw V and N as well of course we waited for them. I don’t know why some of the college’s security guard are so obligate on their duties and some are not (that’s normal), I mean they don’t even bother what you wore, even don’t check your student ID. Yet not for today, I’m about entering college entrance! One of the guard saw me (because I wore slipper!), and he starter to get so excited!!! He quickly WHISTLING at me, continuously 3 TIMES. Just like the referee on the soccer field, playing some vital role. Everyone was looking at him and he yelled at me saying, “UH??? Apa ni??? Slipper, semua pakai slipper ni…”, and kept on pointing at me with the walkie- talkie. Yea, true I wore slipper!!! We wore slipper, who cares??? In college, there’s a bunch of people wearing and it’s not only 3 of us!!!
Stupid!!! I mean, they ‘suka-suka’ check ID and ‘suka-suka’ check this and that, just depends on their mood. He think himself as a discipline teacher…yet he just some big time security guard and hoping that college itself will increase his pay. I only come for one class which is not more than half and hours, how nice you expect me to wear??? He thinks that I have stay in college for the whole day, just like him. Bla la….
Nowadays they even had changed their uniform into white!!! Seems like they had change image yet the attitude itself hasn't change!!! Whatever…waste of money again on them for doing the uniform!!!
By,
PP.
For me, it’s lot. I wanted to collect debt from a friend of mine, where we used to be close, super close last time. It’s been a year she owed for me that. I just don’t know how to tell her? Just few months ago, she started asked me out due to her assignments yet I’m willing to help her. But mom knew it, and stops me to keep in touch with her because she used to go clubbing, hang out with guys even staying out with and a smoker also. And she still owns me money, mom scared that I’ll lend her more so… I know mom doing it for my own good…and I know what’s right and wrong.
Being generous helping others is a good habit yet shall we get the ‘payment’ back??? Money, of course because you lend they pay! It is true, but then once they didn’t pay or forgotten about the matters, how are you going to tell the ones??? I’m broke now, really! I just couldn’t ask money from my parents whenever run of money. Just I’ve got nothing to contribute except spending $. I counted my expanses for last month (every month actually) as below:
Petrol – RM 50 per week.
Piano lesson – RM 150
Pocket money – RM 100 per week.
Washing car – RM 8 (2 weeks once).
Total all – RM 766 per month.
At times mom will advice me, be thrifty and etc. Yes, I am, all the time!!! I spent on food mostly. But then…back to the question. How am I suppose to tell her??? I’d tried to tell her through sms just to avoid awkward yet she just ignored , I knew it!!! Still I’m wasting my credit on her. Arg… stupid enough! Wondering what’s the first thing I’m going to say to her next time, “do you remember that you owe me 80 Bugs???” that’s rude! Or… don’t know la. Should I hire few ‘big shark’ to threaten her??? Ha-ha…
The theory was, it’s easy to lend ones money yet it’s hard to get it back. People are like that… Such a bad influence!!!
“ Tai jer a…bong bong sau la… It's time to pay back!”
I hate that you jokes around when we are discussing about serious stuff.
- Because its not funny.
I hate that you saying "we are life time buddy."
- Be frank, I do not need you as my life time buddy.
I hate that you mentioned a word about you idol.
- Just because he’s not the best!!!
I hate that you forced people to follow your words.
- You got no respect to people.
I hate that you always talk big in front of us.
- You’re just distracting and irritating.
I hate that you never appreciate others works and advices.
- Is your lost.
I hate that you says “we got to go now”.
- Is it means you’re taking lrt??? Then, stop following me.
I hate that you push me just because you’re in hurry.
- Who’s the driver now?
I hate that you complaint to me that you’re tired etc.
- Stop telling me that, just tell your girlfriend off!!!
I hate that you used my car to keep your stuff.
- My car is not a locker for you to keep your stuff.
By,
PP.
Nowadays lots of girl do make-up and it’s already a habit to them. Yea, is it necessary applying make up on your face? Yes, the answer (I think!) Erm… Whenever they go even just out for buying something they also have to apply make up. I’m not exaggerating things yet it’s true. I saw and noticed it before where I been to night market and the girl she wore make up and of course night market used to be crowded and hot, she was like taking out tissue (sheet per sheet) kept on putting it on her face. Girl!!! Is night market you’re going not clubbing la…oh P-L-E-A-S-E…
Applying make up is a menace, it’s true where you are showing your respect to someone else or the event. I totally agree!!! But then some girl just look nice where they did not apply make up some…you know la!!! SOME really freaked me out where they love to do ‘Smokey eye’ and applied lip gloss where it looks like her slobber dripping away. Its over!!!
Thank god that party was usually held at night and dark the place was. So, you don’t have to suffer to look at one’s make up, and it’s scary also where once you stepped out the party and saw her make up ARG… Oh my god is this the gal I’m dancing with the whole night??? Haha…surprise!!!
Question:
When fire happens, what was the first thing you grab?
A make up tools???
B Money? So you can buy new make up tools?
C Or mirror? Checking out whether your make up got fade away?
Friends birthday is around the corner yet I haven't figure out what to get. It's not a big deal for me i think because its was the idea where I have to get a present but then sure there's some people around you, intentionally or accidentally remind you about it. So, I'm pretty sure there's always few people who wanted to share the budget so I'm okay with it also. When it comes to choosing present, everything turn out worst; because I don't know what to get for him/her.
Arg...lots of stuff on earth. Beautiful ones. What's the actual stuff where the ones needed so much, unique indeed. That's a tough question and hard to get also. So??? Search la...still got at least a thing can suit for her/him, right? Yea...I know. But I've got no time to think about it? I'm stress about my own stuff and so on. I also knew that's all about heart, heart's the matter. So do you think the same way as I do? Where he/she says don't care, does she/he really mean it??? If yes, how you know??? You wouldn't know what's in his/her mind???
Just be genuine... I hope the next life, there's no big day such as birthday, teacher's day and etc. It's a part of my selfishness yet what I think was out there might have someone who shared the same common as I do. Hehe....naive??? Or heartless?? Nope...it's all about $$$. Nowadays, really facing lots of financial problems where every price are rising and young teens don't even know how to budget spending, just kept on spending....SAVE some la... Even my mom will 'accidentally' says that, "now a business getting char (bad), han d la...(be thrifty), king jai mm hou a...(economi wasn't good)..." We all knew that she MEANT it.
Aih... Imagine about the future. What will you be???
Then you'll know what to do then. Gambateh (work hard), all the best to you.
God Bless....
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What is the best gift for a friend which you only knew her/he for a year?
What is the best gift for primary friend?
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Entertainment, I missed out lot of movies recently. Like ice age I haven’t watch yet and some of it already out dated. Oh… Now I wanted to save some pocket moneys to get a ticket to Genting just to watch Stefanie Sun’s concert. I missed out Faye Wong’s once so I have to take the chance this time. I wish my mom would let me go because she also knew that I’m also a big fan of her. I never ever been to concert before so I invited CL to join me, at least there’s some guider with me ha-ha…. She’s way experiences in these concerts thingy because she always went concert with her sister. Wow…great experience. “Ma…I want to go…………..” $
Getting broke now!!! I need financial support. Couldn’t work because this semester really hard subject so have to pay fully attention in class. Also there’s no time for me to work as in weekends was my holidays. K says that it’s a curse since last semester we all have to come to coll just for 1 class. Actually was started on 2nd semester. Petrol really costly… Arg…how am I going to survive in the future as in now the economic wasn’t going well, everything’s price are rising. $
It's all about money...even the family are succeeding the 'budget spending' program.
Then, I heard that you gave up for the committee, I’m really surprised towards it because you’re the one who really into it yet now… Hope everything’s fine. Just take care.
All the best to you. Happy April Fool to all of you.
I’m sorry!!!
By,
PP.
Now I’m feeling well. Still a bit dizzy, and drank tons of water. The most exaggerate thing was my mom asked me to sit down and still, don’t walked around where there’s nobody at home. If you fainted no one can help you…. WA…I also scared since she said it until so brag. Is my sickness that serious??? Whatever, just be healthy everyone.
Then, there’s a curse among our group where mostly all my buddies been robbed. The latest was just happened on Saturday. The robber just grabbed her bag after she passed by the police stand. Ha-ha…what else they police will do??? Of course, chased the robber like illegal racing on the road. At last, did they manage to catch the robber??? That one, I don’t know. She lots few hundreds at least, should be??? Hope that our police officer will be more efficient and to those robbers, please stop robbing and snatching because someday you’ll know the consequences. THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU DO. Also touchwood to those (especially among the family)....
Thanks to J because he spared us meal for lunch yesterday.
Then, I ate pizza 3 days in a roll. Now I’m getting fatter…shit!!! Kinda addicted to it. Because mom just bought a new oven so wanted to give it a try, once started couldn't resist it. Oh my god…
Then, what else??? Mom bought me a new cell phone at last. I waited so long and at first she kept on ignored me and YES she’s great pretender. Whatever, now I got my new phone, happy for it!!! At least, not going out still get some new stuff. I wanted to go shopping because now Mega sales is on…its going to end soon. Then, I wanted to get a new shade. My dad lost it where both of them went out to have dinner and my dad didn’t lock the car so…got stolen!!! I hate the fella who stole it!!! I worked so hard for few weeks in KLCC it just got stole in a night!!! Hate it…although it happened few weeks back. Still, I’m angry and felt sad about it!!!
Online…nothing much. There are less and less people online now. Where the hell are they? I got two bad news, and 1 good news. Bad news go first. I went back to my grandma’s house (mommy‘s side) last Sunday, as usual they had dinner every weekends. Then, all my aunties and cousin’s kept telling me that
“Karen, you got new course mate now in KDU.”
“Uh? Oh really? Who?”
“Neh…Janet lo…your ‘biau moi’ (cousin) a…”
“Oh, that’s great!!!” *Bleh......*
I'm dead reluctant to study with her in a same college and even she doing the same course as me. I’ve been studied with her in a same school since I’m standard 3, I purposely transferred to there because of what her mom told my mom. My mom got influences from her mom and now seems like her mom got influences from my mom. Whatever, gosh…just get her away from me!!! I bet her mom won’t call me and asking me to watch-out her daughter and so on because I’m high pay ha-ha… Arg… and my second brother’s girlfriend, wanted to enroll KDU as well. Yes, they got right where they go and I’ve no right to stop them!!! The good news was, hahahhahahah…..hahhaha….haaha…as my senior TS told, once you recognized any new student to KDU you’ll get hundred above as commission. Hehe…and I’m gonna earned that $$$!!!
What make him so proud of having a girlfriend? Uh…that’s doesn’t mean anything to others as well. What would others say so? Erm…oh pity him because now only he got his first girlfriend so on. Whatever, as a friend I surely happy for him yet couldn’t understand why people do have to show-off when they got a partner??? Better held a dinner, or announce it through radio so let the whole nation will know that ____ has found the ones you love. Just doesn’t make sense at all. Keep it to yourself, for me I would like to dig dig dig people’s secret - secret digger. There are less and less fun when we hanging out together because you told him, her, them, that you has a girlfriend!!!
Then, some of them also being off!!! Showing their ‘strawberry’. Of course, some of them weren’t showing it purposely, others did indeed. Arg…people are like that on this earth? Really disgusting!!! Lustful ….
Arg……..what am I written here??? Shit…holiday does make me bored like hell. *sot sot*
I'm BACK ^^ ... FenNeL
angel have create a new blog -- http://skyandcloud.blogspot.com
It's write in chinese~
hahaha, its almost same with me ~
only caren "U" ok, are all write in english~
ya~i know, your ënglish is better than your chinese~
what to do?
eh em... e..... yup...
This sem for me will be quite busy too although it is only 2 subject that i have to take for 7 weeks~
aiks... busy and boring...
i don't actually know what is angel writing about in her blog~
thats why... are my chinese become worse ?
oh my god... "no eye c~ **"
hey, caren~!
u giv NG TECK SING my email ar!?
how can he know my msn add~ ?

well, its ok ~
BUT!!! don't show him where is my blog K!
He is a big mouth and a ppl who don't know how to be sympathetic and don't know how to cares about ppl's feeling's Buffalo~
canot let him know where is my blog! if not the whole world will laugh at me!
when will you free?
juz tell me when will u go starbuck lar~
i'll go join u if after class (I mean at coll)
hahahaha~
then oklar~
keep in touch ~ My Dear.
Also all his buddies were back to visit him. Is more like a gathering that held in hospital. Everyone worried and wondering how he feels so on. He’s okay, can talk and couldn’t sit still like normal just like us because he hit in abdomen. The bullet still inside his body, near backbone. “I can feel it”, he told.
Beside wedding feast, would there ever have an event or things that could bring all buddies or friends gather at once? Ah…funeral. I couldn’t say that it was a bad thing that we all met in the hospital it just…they all were buddies. Knew each others since Form 1 till Form 5 then separated yet they still have a small gathering – mamaking every weekend. Not much people attend but is more than a commitment that tells, we were all buddies and nothing gonna change that!!! Anything you need help, just buzz me!!! I’ll be right there!!! It couldn’t deny that they’re super close to each other even separated from far… Even from Scotland, TH also called back and almost catches a flight back here… (Just kidding yet he almost do it.)
Buddy, buddy, my lifetime buddy where A always called me. But what its means as a buddy? A lifetime buddy? I’m envy their friendship which they could last it until now and in the future as well; they got married…till old…aunties and uncles…grandma and grandpa.
Erm…happy to see them and yet still happy. Get well soon, CK.
WHERE’S MY BUDDIES?

I havent been here in a while. Lot of stuff wanted to say so yet...doesn't know where to start it? Its okay...erm...just to inform you guys that there are 2 cuties in my house also new member to the Lee's family.
I never realized that there's a bird nest on the top of one of my mom's tree. Till the day, my brother, Kennu told me then I knew. I wasn't so busy yet relax... Just being doesn't care anything that happened around me. Okay....then I started pay attention to it. Every morning before I left the house, sure I checked on them whether they are okay? ALive? and so on. They were doing fine at first and since the past few weeks was raining, heavily indeed. We all started worried plus their mother seems like abandoned them earlier but sometimes I spotted others birdy will feed them. Gald..that they being so nice.
After 3 weeks then, they getting bigger and Shakey could stand its own around the nest. Its keeps on shaking where I dont know why? Piggy, still same old time - kept on sleeping all the time. At times, I'm not sure whether its alive or what? Their mother seldom come back to take care of them...
The next morning...Kennu, woke me up! Asking me whether did I do anything to cuties. Of course, NOPE!!! I just took few pictures from them, nothing much.
"That's weird, where are they?"
"Aiya, maybe they flew away d. They'd grown up what?"
"Stupid a? How old are they? Flew away???"
"Then? Where they went?"
"How I know? You think I'm the guard a?"
We've been talking this topic untill dad's home. When dad's cleaning the 'longkang', dad called me and my brother, says that Piggy's here. Its found dead and where's Shakey??? NO one knows...
Arg...Thought they will have a wonderful life yet all my dream spoilt after a night. Why they would never get a chance to see the world??? Why would their mom being so cruel to them; abandoned them. Why would the GOD never give them a chance to grow? Why giving hope to them at first then took it away later?
Rest in peace, Shakey & Piggy.
(Still got few pictures haven't post, the loading was freaking slow. Anyway will post it in few days.)
Yesterday, I met my senior, TS. He told that another senior got warded because "kena" shoot by gun where he was struggle with the robber. He's doing fine now, got operation yesterday morning. Will visit him soon. 2k and lost few handphones....aih...$$$ just let him take la, why so 'kan cheong' about it? Can earn back in the future what. The news did published on the newspaper on Monday.
Hope you get well soon, CK.
Take care everyone. Happy holiday...
Now I’m back with my pc but have to get a new modem at first (do not know what happen to it, It just could not connect online). Well, as usual I read my mail and visit others blog as well. Today, is my best friend Jane’s 19 years old birthday. But then I couldn’t celebrate with her today due to my assignments and coll yet she’s in Genting now with my secondary classmates. Sure she enjoy it very much. Really do hope that she have fun and a memorable birthday. Birthday yea…sure full of fun.
I showed K one of my primary school photo album. She laughed because of my old look (everyone has that, because young time). I found out one thing. Even now, I didn’t get to know her still in the future sure I’ll get to her as well, because she knew mostly all my primary school friends. I was shocked where the world was freaking small. I know you, you know me…I know your friends and you know mine as well…Funny!!!
Coincident? Nope, I think everyone is connected to each other. I depend on you where you depend on me. That’s a fact. Just like marriage? We all keep on searching our life partner then getting to know him/her well and got married. Then they will shared their things, secrets…genuinely. Children, grandchild, great-grandchild…on and on. It will never stop.
I read about Fennel’s post…is about her coll’s life where she worrying about her result and so on. She fed up the life of being single as in independent, alone in coll. She mentioned about friends who were close then suddenly just walked out her life and became stranger. I’ve been through that before they even left me when the moment I need them the most. I’m okay with it or else I’m used to it. Sincere doesn’t help anything, still people will betrayed you and take opportunity on you.
Wow…confession time. Congrats to all my buddies those who found their partner and best friend. Also wish you all be happy always. Take care and
I’M BACK!!!
Sorry that I could not post for this few weeks because my laptop has sent to factory due to its problem (motherboard got burnt I think so). Yet, I had spent RM 15 in Cyber cafe just to finish up all my assignments. Interesting…now I would realize that I should care and treasure more my laptop because I do not want to spend a penny in Cyber cafe…because is way expensive!!! When I retire, I’ll open a Cyber café and make lots of $$$... Gosh, I’m turning into a greedy woman. I NEED $$$ who doesn’t need it? Lots of teens dropped by just to play online game. They are addicted to it...What a computer "lover"!!!
Take care, have a nice and happy day always.
By,
PP
Then, when we arrived there, we are disappointed about it. It was closed. Is okay, there still got another Bak Kut Teh, Meng Kee. It’s really packed and got no seat so have to wait for few minutes (luckily we arrived earlier if not…we have to wait longer). The food was okay and just nice. The soup was delicious.
As usual, after the meal we as Chinese sure will do follow the tradition - “tan cha” (we will enjoy and drink the tea slowly …) That’s what we do. And the first thing in my mind was, okay we were far from KL and I’m pretty sure that my dad would not know any uncles or friends who stay in PJ area. Gosh…really terpelanting about it. The owner suddenly looked at us and smiled towards my mom, I quickly asked my dad whether they knew the tauke. Is such relieve answer…NO. But then why would the uncle smile towards her? There’s he comes, asking “ Mr. Lee?” in the dialect of Hakka. Gosh… he knew my dad’s 2nd brother (my uncle‘s friend). Hmm…he sat beside my dad and chit chatting with him and my mom. I hate when people do that because…hello? If you sit there and chit chatting with only two person and ignore the feeling of a teens who sat there quietly…is RUDE, okay???
Whatever, I keep showing signal to my mom and mom show it to dad and we ciao earlier. Okay, now I think that my dad is really a talkative person and wherever he goes, sure he will met someone to chat with, I’m thinking that whether I manage to do that also. If I’m like that…I’ll be “zhi zha po” (Cantonese) and no one will like me…keeps on talking nonstop…Then I might be single forever…NO NO NO!!!
Just cracking some jokes where I’m really bored. Aih… As fishtail always says that I’m a very funny person. I’M NOT!!!
Somebody save me……………………………….....................................................................................
By,
PP.
Me? No colors and was a tranquil life. I always told my friend, I owned a boring life and I enjoy the moment when I'm alone.
I do not play games where lots of teens like to do and addicted to.
I do not exercise where people think it can reduce stress and others as well. I do not go clubbing where lots of teens like me often go.
I do not like studies but have to because I do not know what else I can do and after graduate?
I do not chit chatting with people through phones because
I'm deaf, the best to communicate with me is TYPING, and then you'll understand me well. Hope you'll do.
By,
PP.
But it’s a different story when you go out station. I went Ipoh with my relatives. It’s quite boring sitting in the car yet there’s so packed and even it’s a Honda Accord. Gosh, my New Year wish was I wish all my aunts and cousins will be fit, and then next time I would not need to squeeze in a car with “fatty”.
Is a one day trip, we went there for dim-sum, white coffee and visit someone house also (whose a friend of my aunts; business partner they called). The uncle was so shocked because we came with 5 cars and also with kids (they are really irritating). So, we hang out in the uncle house for an hour, my aunt they all just like DBKL; they almost finished up uncle’s snack food, drinks and beer as well. Freak out…
Then, after that the uncle led us to some famous restaurant in Ipoh…..then after dinner, we back to KL. Then, tomorrow mom’s phone keeps ringing in the early morning. “Ok, then we meet up there 4pm”. Another plan to go on.
We went to Klang for dinner and went to a temple just to see lantern. Is freaking jam there, I regrets where friends told me not to go there. Nothing nice there, just lots of people and cars. On the way back, JAM!!! We stuck in the traffic for 3 hours just to pass 4 traffic lights.
After the 2 day trip, I just stay at home and do nothing. Is nothing different where CNY and normal school days. Till now, I don’t even realized that CNY is going to end, is going to end tomorrow.
By,
PP.
Fight with husband…
Husband treated her badly…
Get scolded from husband in public…
Husband never appreciates whatever she did…
Been threatening by someone or someone close to her…Tease by others…
Childs didn’t pass with flying colors…
Pressure…
Received some special gift during special events…
When boyfriend propose…
On wedding day itself…
A close friend or member’s family had passed away…
Get dumped by boyfriend…
Felt touched by sad movies…
Felt touched by songs…
Got scared from horror movies…
Being alone in dark places…
Being alone in lifetime…
Win a lottery…
Met her favorite idol…
First time heard the child says “mama”…
Being successful in lifetime…
Felt awesome when overcome hard time and failure…
Lost everything in just a day…
………………………………………………………………………………………………
By,
PP.
First of all, I’m more close to my mom (same thing goes to my bothers) and hardly got same topic to chat with my dad. Really hard time to go…just only two of us in the car, freaking hostile.
“Where to go?”
“Chicken rice in Pudu.” Deciding where to have dinner.
“Go there and get toothpicks for me.”
“O!” After meal.
What a surprise, dad met his old friend and chit chat awhile. Just awhile, I counted this is the shortest conversation that he ever had made. He has create a new record hehe…
“Wanted to eat ‘char siu pau’, later you go down and get it okay?”
“O! How many you want?”
“Get 10, for tomorrow breakfast .”
“O!” On the way back home.
Settle the things then straightaway drove back home. Oh my god I was praying inside my heart do not ever try this again. Is really weird where both of us walking together without talking to each other even inside the car. (Is different sometimes, we chat about cars and shopping stuff where mom was WITH US but no when mom was not in.) Then, people stared at me like some weirdo walking down the street or got some dirty things on my face, shirt or else.
“Oh my god…I’m her daughter la, what are you looking at?”
“Can’t you see we look alike as father and daughter?”
Wanted to shout it out loud yet I’m not so daring to say it.
As I counted, both of us only spoke for 8 sentences more or less for the night. Nothing much…could not imagine if life without mom – bored and I’m sure I’ll never learn how to spoke.
*Arg….sometimes really don’t feel like going out. Even you sitting inside the car, people still will stare at you. I’m sure I’m okay with my eyes in fact they should check their own la. I told my mom so many times about this, she just says “ignore it la, how would you know if you don’t look at them they are staring at you and who started to look at each other first?” Oh my god…what’s wrong with the people…..*
By,
PP.
“Hey, want to go out now? I’m bored la…get ready yea, I’m coming. ”
“Uh? Come on, what’s the time now? Still early la brother. Just come around 9.30pm okay?”
“Okay, see yea!”
I’m sick…suffered from sore throat and flu. Keeps on sleeping the whole day. Then, at night still I went out with friends because I could not stand the boredom being alone at home. Parents they went to Puchong just for a dinner, brothers haven’t back yet from work and I have to settle my dinner all by myself.
Firstly, we went to Cheras just eat young tau foo then M suggested the next place for banana ice cream. Hell knows where to get banana ice cream for him yet I suggested Kepong. Then we went to Kepong for dessert shop (kei tak sick) just to have tong sui… Well we are used to do that; travel to here and there as long as spend time together.
We hang out till 12 mid night then W’s phone keeps on ringing because his mother keeps on calling as usual just to urge this mommy’s boy back home before 12am yet he could never ever follow his mother’s words. Come on…the night is still young, Aunty!!! Oh gosh, am I being rude? Nope, I would not dare says this out loud in front of his mother (of course, who will?) except here!! But as I know, is for his own good also because the insecure society, people commit crime, accidents happen at night…. Aih…just stay at home would be the best! NO WAY….
Then, after sent M back home both of us were chit chatting in the car where W was ready to send me home. I was surprised what he says.
“I feel like coupling, I wish I could! I could not stand the loneliness that I’m having now. Is good to share something with her, someone whom I am close to, and you know?”
Oh gosh, this is what I heard from a guy whom I think that he’s cool and yet would never ever think this sort of things. Totally TERPELANTING…
“You could share your problems with your friends, family and others.” “I know how you feel, man!” “Just take it easy and everything will do fine.” “Having a girlfriend wasn’t that good also; now just enjoy your bachelorhood la…” “Aiyo….this kind of things a…got also fan, no also fan(troublesome)!”
“Aih…maybe because of my ex I think so. She did message me sometimes just to let me that she’s fine with her present boyfriend and so on.”
“She just showing off la…”
“Yea, that’s what I think so. Yet I’m missing the days with her…”
“Whatever…just chill la…for me never ever hoping something too over and just let it be.”
I recall last time he told me that the reason why he broke up with his ex is because of his mother. He is mommy’s boy, everyone knows that! But now, people changed! People holds strong on their opinion and do the right things where they think were worth. Erm…stupidity? Naïve? Nah…I do not know!!!
Just the magic of love it’s called.
SINGLE LONGEVITY!!!
What I think was being a rational person would be better than being an irrational, day dreamer hoping for cupids….I would not think that coupling is something that harmful in fact I’m waiting for my Mr. Right LOL….Just let the god decide and do something where benefit to our own not just dreaming about this and that, tuay pu tauy???
By,
PP.
Woke up around 6.15am everyday just to avoid traffic jam
Go college for 2 hours class everyday except on Monday
Hang out with friends for a movies or breakfast, lunch, shopping, karaoke etc
Take a nap from noon until evening
Facing the computer whole night just to chit chat with friends
Replying mail that received everyday
Watching TV shows which keeps on repeating
Being a chauffer sending mother to here and there
Going out yamcha with friends
Play songs everyday which you already familiar with the most
Reading the same novel or magazine seems it’s never end
Day dreaming about something where would never ever become true
Rushing assignments which it’s going to due
Planning where to go during weekends on weekdays
Waiting for confirmation calls from vendors where got interviewed last week
Checking others blog every night
That’s all I could think about at the moment….
By,
PP.
Of course there are included some disappointment. I was late because of some transport problem where one of my friends from Sungai Buloh supposes come to fetch me but on the way down through Kepong was flooding caused jam. The gathering started at 8pm but I was late for an hour. People started calling me since 7.30pm, “Where are you?” “No one was here yet!” “Was the gathering been canceled?” ten millions of question been asked and my phone keep on “tling-tling…” all the time. Started hate my phone since yesterday because of the ring tone and message beeping... I’m low in credit….
From KFC we changed to some mamak stall, a very high class mamak stall. All drinks counted RM 121.50 if i'm not mistaken. Getting broke...hopefully there are some feedbacks from the job where morning itself I went for interview with Daniel, Andy and Kay.
Also, those who I expected to come yet they didn’t turns up. At least let me know earlier so I can get a better plan….Don’t message me in last minute please next time! So far so good. We also celebrated someone's birthday…
The party ended up around 1.30am. All was tired, have fun though. Just another day for me…tiring, happy and joyful. To all my friends out there,
FRIENDSHIP FOREVER.
By,
PP.
Okay, we tried mostly the shop and some only wanted full timer so it’s okay. At first I wanted to work in Tower Record yet they do not need workers. So I gave up my mind and search…. At last we got two vacancy where selling ice cream and fruit juice. Something weird whereby they wanted to see through our result slip! Shocked about that… Okay, just done our first round interview and coming 2nd interview in 18th Jan, Wed. Hopefully we will get the job instead staying at home doing nothing. Also $$$ is so vital, wanted to get some extra money by myself just to support my car petrol and life expanses.
The moment we had lunch in food court in KLCC, Kay spotted others teens around us; mostly of them carrying some plastic bag all from education fair which held in Conventional Center. So, we all planned to visit the education fair just wanted to check out how was the fair going on…We went and met Lalitha (Kay’s friend, they chat just like ten years never meet up though they meet each other in college most of the time) Then, Daniel, Andy and I walked around while Kay’s chatting with Lali (Lalitha). It’s a very huge and successful education fair. We also drop by at KDU counter just to greet some lecturer…then us ciao. How “Wu Liao (boring)” we are!!! It’s a long journey from the shopping centre to Conventional Centre.
Okay, then back home…telling mom what I’ve done and blab la blab la….
That’s my day…
At last, I wish I can get the job!!! Because I’m getting broke day by day. Thinking of starting some business where I planned selling cookies and flowers. Yet all still under planning it seems doesn’t working. Aih…
To: Lali, (her birthday coming next Monday.)
Happy Birthday!
Wishing you all the best and bless you always.
Pass with flying colors.
Be happy always.
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PP.

